There is just too much going on right now it's almost overwhelming. I feel great, new beginnings and all that. I'm actually back down to my pre-baby size just about. My tummy is gone, and I'm fitting into my old clothes again. Feels great honestly. Can't wait to start working out again.
My family is going through some rough stuff right now, and they too will be having some new beginnings soon. My parents are going through a messy break up right now. It's having more of an effect on me than I thought it would. It's not what you think. I honestly want them to break up I've been telling them for years that they need to break up, it's the truth everyone in that house is completely miserable. I just thought that since I moved out years ago I was beyond all this stuff. But everything is crazy and they're bringing back memories and it's all just a lot to deal with.
My parents are both trash talking each other to me, and then worrying that the other is trash talking. My brother is depressed and angry (what else is new) way worse than before though. I went over there for easter tonight and I held out my arms for a hug as I usually do (I was like 3 feet away from him, nowhere near his proverbial personal space bubble) and he walked over and slapped my arm down. His greeting to me was an angry grunt. Like what did I do? Apparently something bad.
I can't wait until this whole thing is over and done with, and hopefully it won't get as messy as it looks like it will.. There is talk of my dad trying to fight my mom for the house, and him calling a lawyer to get her charged with tax fraud or some crap. Really I feel like I'm being torn in two. I love them both. It's like I have to take sides. I don't know what to do. I guess the same thing I've been doing a lot lately, meditating.