Wow, life has a crazy way of dragging you kicking and screaming into the fray without so much as a how do you do. What I mean is 4 and 5 year olds are insane, and I've figure out that they are pretty much just small drunk people whose job it is to make you pull out all your hair in a frenzy while they surround you yelling your name and demanding you perform some menial task for them right this very instant. Honestly, I love love love my job and my kinders, but oh man. They are so excited for the winter break and Christmas, and they are so high energy right now (which the group of kids that I take care of are high energy already, such as mr ADHD and the rest) that I am standing in the middle of the room as a whirlwind of children pass by and I hopelessly try to remind them to use their walking feet and their indoor voices until I finally snap and make them all sit and have a bit of quiet time because they just aren't listening or respecting their teacher (me) or their friends the way they should be.
My mantra, which I repeat in my head as I go about my day is "I love my kids, I love my kids, I love my kids." Sometimes followed by "they'll go home at the end of the day. Only 10 more hours until they go home."
Though not all of the day makes me insane, there are always the lovely moments when they help their friends or use their nice words to solve problems or when one of them comes to me to say they've drawn me a picture to take home. I love their hugs and that they fight over who gets to be my partner when we line up. I love the smiles, the laughter, the giggles, the way they light up when they learn something new. Even though I am losing my mind at the moment, it's all worth it in the end. I know this.
Skyler is amazing, on top of saying mama, he is crawling (not very far yet as he doesn't see much so he kind of just goes to whatever toy he can see and then plays with it for a while. I don't think he realizes he can explore the entire apartment yet, which I am not in a rush for..) he pulls to stand without a problem, his focus is awesome, he is making lots of eye contact which is something I couldn't have imagined when we first found out he was blind (he never looked at faces), he's very interested in the world around him, and I love seeing that. He is so amazing. I can't believe one day he will be four or five and I will have to answer so many of the questions I answer for my kinders each day, for him. Every day is an adventure, one that I am so lucky to be on.