Wednesday, May 20, 2009


Lately things have been overwhelming me. Which is odd because normally C is the one who gets overwhelmed with things while I take it in stride. I think I'm just panicking because I'm almost done my course, but I still have so much work to do before my last class tomorrow night, and I'm panicking because of the bills. C keeps adding more expenses. He's a sucker I swear. One of his friends somehow convinced him to sign up for a life insurance policy for the three of us which costs $64 a month. The only thing is we both had our own already.. Mine only costs $15 a month. The one he signed us up for costs double that each. And I didn't agree to it. He just signed the bloody papers without me, and then pressured me into signing them, while they were there so I didn't have time to read it over or fight with him about it. I wanted to wring his neck.

And the weather here. I tell you it feels like it's prophesizing doom. It is still not anywhere near anything resembling the beginning of summer! It's barely even spring. I keep thinking it's fortelling the end of the world. I think it's a big part of what's overwhelming me. I can't deal with this gray, rainy, snowy weather anymore. It's ridiculous. I should be outside wearing shorts and a t-shirt enjoying picnics and long walks, not bundling up in a cozy sweater crocheting a thick wool blanket in front of the tv. Baking things just to warm up the apartment. I'm losing my mind in here. Last night we had frost, just to ensure that anything anyone had the nerve to plant is now dead. No May flowers for you losers in Manitoba, enjoy the eternal winter.

I swear I feel better today than I did yesterday. That's saying a lot. Heh. Anyway, Skyler is doing well and that's all that matters. Yesterday I made him a little book with our home visitor. I love it very much, it was a great idea, and the girl who comes to visit us brought the textured fabrics so we could do a texture book for him because of his lack of vision. So I cut all the shapes out of the different textures, and since I don't know braille yet I just wrote each shape out in ball point pen on the back of the card pushing it into the carpet so it would be upraised on the front. This way he can feel the words, even if he can't read it, at least it will get his fingers used to feeling bumpy paper. It's a very cute book, and I'll take pictures of it later.

But for now, I am off to work. Crossing my fingers that N takes a nice long nap today so I can finish my homework..


She said...

You've definitely got a lot going on, so it's understandable that you might be a bit overwhelmed by it. I'm with you on the weather. I LOVE snow, but I'm so ready for it to be over by spring time, and I hate those days when it's cold and snowing when it should be getting warmer and sunny!! I hope the weather turns soon for you!

Karen said...

You need to get out of the house for a while. Do you have a stroller? Maybe you can go walk around a mall just to get some exercise and let Skyler experience all the new sounds and the smell of the food court. Remember that you are just as important as he is.

Stacie said...

Well damn, the weather in Manitoba stinks. You need some sunshine!

I'm sorry things are so overwhelming right now. I hope things get better...and soon!

Mrs. Spit said...

Aha! So I can blame you for our wretched weather!