Thanks to everyone who commented, and thanks Litterof1 for finding all that stuff for me. I appreciate it.
I haven't been commenting on everyone's blogs as much as usual lately. I'm still reading everyday, but I don't know I just don't feel right. Everyone else has such deep meaningful things to say, and when someone makes a sad post I just don't know how to be comforting. I feel like it's all been said before and I kind of feel like it isn't fair to everyone, here I am all happy in my little bubble with my little baby.. I mean I got what I wanted, while everyone else is still mourning or losing and trying over and over, or being terrified of how things will turn out. I just hate to feel that I am sort of rubbing my happiness in people's faces when things aren't working out the way they should for them.
Even with no sleep, and a million feedings a night, and thrush and his pituitary problems and his development things from being a preemie, I still have nothing to complain about, there are so many people who have it far worse than me. And C asked me the other day if I would still want another baby. I said in a heartbeat, I'd do it all again right now if I didn't want to continue nursing Sky. He said he thought that maybe after the NICU experience I wouldn't want to try again. But I would, I told him that at least now I have some idea of what to expect, even if the next one were to end up there. And I know that anything could go wrong again, and I'd be completely paranoid all over again because there is still miscarriage and stillbirth to worry about, but I'd still do it again anyway. Even if I lost the baby, I would be devastated, but if there's a chance I will end up with another one like this one I already have then I will take it. Of course that won't be until Sky is one or two, but I really do want another, and I am willing to face all the risks that come along with it.
Anyway let me know if it's okay to comment on your blogs, or if you'd prefer I didn't. Don't worry I won't be offended, I'd rather know than continue doing it if it's something upsetting.