Monday, May 26, 2008

Vitamin B?

Thank you, I hope you're right about the strong little one thing ;) I think my prenatals are what's been keeping me from having morning sickness this entire time, because I've remembered to take them first thing in the morning everyday except that one day that I puked, and I haven't had a repeat of that since it happened, it must be the vitamin B6. It seems as long as I take them as soon as I wake up I am ok. Though I haven't quite been able to eat as much as usual, I seem to "tire out" like a few bites into a meal. It kind of sucks, but maybe I'm just not supposed to be eating so much right now or something.

I had a crazy dream last night, one where I saw an Ob and she checked everything and said my hCG levels were unusually high. I have no idea what that's supposed to mean. Is that even possible? Maybe it means I'm having twins, they run in my family, but would twins make my hCG levels high? I don't know. Time to consult dr. google. Anyway maybe the dream was telling me that it's time to schedule an appointment with a doctor soon.. Seeing as I haven't done that yet. Which I assure you I have good, if not crazy reasons for not doing it yet. I have anxiety disorder, and guess what sets me off.. Doctors. I don't know what it is, I guess I am always fearing the worst.. And especially after losing one, I'm terrified that I'll go in, and they'll get that look on their face, and then tell me the heart stopped beating or my baby has two heads or something.

The other day C's sister said something that really made me stop and think for a moment. I don't know if you've seen Finding Nemo (I'll admit I've only seen the first half, because C's other sister barged in and started a fight and ruined it and we had to stop the movie, but) I mentioned to C's sister M that we're calling it Nemo for now, and she said "That's fitting" I was like "huh?" (and she doesn't know anything about our miscarriage, so I thought the next bit was interesting) and she said "Nemo was the one who survived, all the other eggs didn't make it." I was taken aback for a moment. It seemed kind of like a sign that she would point that out to me. Neither of us had thought of that when we decided to call it Nemo, but it's true at the beginning of the movie there are a million eggs, and they all get eaten by a shark, except for Nemo. Weird..

Yesterday I had a family reunion thing with my mom's side of the family. It was pretty fun, except that I had to hold myself back from yelling out I'm pregnant. I wanted to tell the whole room, but at the same time I didn't. There were lots of sweets, which used to be my favourite thing.. I've always loved sweets and there was never anything that was too sweet, but yesterday, it seemed like everything assaulted my taste buds. My mom gave me a mini donut with icing normally one of my favourite things, I couldn't finish it for the life of me, it was just too sweet. Even the punch at the reunion was too sweet, and it was just orange juice mixed with club soda. My dad made icecream with fudge sauce after dinner and I could only have a few bites. This is getting scary! What next? Am I going to like almonds? Ew.

Well we have to go drive our room mate and her baby to look at a new place to live, we're all moving out on July first and I can't wait. C and I are going to get our own place where we can be away from his sister, and have our own life. Start our family just the two of us, + one (maybe)

1 comment:

Antigone said...

Yes, high HCG would mean twins. Are you hoping for twins?

My first u/s is tomorrow morning. I held off on the u/s because of my own fears.